Out of control and loving it...

My life is out of control, and completely beautiful. I love that my life is out of my control because I know it is now completely in the Savior's control. What do I mean? Currently I'm unemployed, joined a new church, am applying for a job overseas that I may or may not get, waking up twice a week at 4:00 a.m. to pray, living at home, and am completely content. I am completely content because I was led here by my beautiful Lord and Savior Jesus. I gave Him my life and my everything, and I expected everything to stay the same. It didn't. I asked Jesus for more of Himself, for more of His heart, for Him to do great and wondrous things through me, and when He asked me to give up everything or He took it away I wondered, Why? Well I'm here to tell you it is not because I didn't ask. I asked Him all right. I asked Him for more, more MORE. I begged Him for more, and then He started changing me. Every time Jesus takes something from me (a job, a friend, a longed-for get-together with friends) it is only to give me something better, something greater.Every time He asks me to let go of something, to give something up, it is only to give me something better, something greater, and I can't deny it: He has. I am more at peace than I have ever been in my entire life. My heart is more open than it has ever been. I am able to serve with all my heart, love with all my heart, and worship God with a passion like never before. I have never been so full. My life is out of control and I love it because I don't have to worry about what I will eat, drink, wear, money for student loans, for South Korea, for school, because I know My Husband, My Beloved Jesus will take care of it. I don't have to worry that I'm not working because I am doing the work of the Lord. I don't have to worry because I am doing exactly what I was asked to do, by God. And actually I asked Him. Thousands of times I asked Jesus what He wanted me to do....In my bedroom, in my car, at the store, over and over, "God what do you want me to do?" Screamed in frustration, "God what do you want me to do?!??" Spoken softly with tears, "God what do you want me to do?" Spoken in desperation, "God, please, tell me what to do." I knew, I know that my time and my life are not my own, so if they are God's then He must have something He wants me to do. 

I opened my Bible to Isaiah chapter 1:

1:16-17

“Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean; 

Put away the evil of your doings from before My eyes.

Cease to do evil,

Learn to do good;

Seek justice,

Rebuke the oppressor;

Defend the fatherless,

Plead for the widow."

When I read these words I knew. I knew I must help the orphans, the widows, and the oppressed. This is what God wanted me to do. This is what God wants His people to do. God is pouring into me so I can pour into others.

So I am here, and I am choosing to seek justice for the oppressed. Because there are slaves in our nation and in our world who are crying out with no one to hear them, but our Father hears them, their cries have come before Him, and He is raising up people to help them. I choose to be one who obeys. I choose to be raised up for something greater. To rebuke the oppressor, to seek justice, to defend the fatherless and the widow, which these victims are. 
For the next four months while I remain in Omaha I will be working to fight against human trafficking in our city and in the world. I have joined the Omaha Dream Center, a new church plant here in town that is also called to do something about this issue. It is not an easy or a quick fight, but rather a long and difficult struggle for freedom for each victim. Not only freedom from captivity, but freedom from fear and wounds inflicted.We believe God wants to save these women, girls, and boys one at a time. We are basing everything we do off of prayer and the scripture Isaiah 61, so I have begun leading a weekly prayer meeting. Already God has provided Divine connections to people who also have a heart for this issue, and there is even a connection to someone who feels called to battle this injustice in South Korea. Totally God. I give Him all the glory forever and ever! I would appreciate your prayers for me and the team at the Dream Center as we seek God and launch this campaign. If you would like to join in prayer, the meeting is each Sunday night so please contact me. If you don't live in Omaha, I will be posting prayer points on this blog. Ultimately this was His plan from the beginning, and we are just walking in it.